SPLAT

Can someone tell me why it is that when I start to feel OK, I seem to crash? It happens time and time again............About 8 years ago I was running around, doing heaps of stuff at school and out of school. Now I do ZILCH and I STILL end up in a heap. I have a good start to the day, then within a couple of hours, I can be in tears, pick up a bit during the day, then fizzle at night. I am up and down like a yo-yo...............

I try to control how I am but sometimes I can't. I try not to let on to the family how I feel but they are not silly........they know. The birthday girl loses it with me, DH can too......

Just don't know.

I find myself thinking of doing 'silly things'.............I have strong urges just not to be here.

I have been told so many times that I am not expected to ever go back to work, then this morning I am asked if I want to go back............. The finances are all geared to a low income so me going back to work will stuff up those plans.

Have to go.........

I'm a bit tired and need my beauty sleep.............